Some of my StuCo kids on a Scavenger Hunt. They make my day, really.
Still, it's as if I can't get a grasp on the bigger picture. I know what it is- I know that I am in desperate need of Jesus-time and to get His Big Picture and to live in a daily relationship with Him, but I'm having a hard time with that. That's why I love reading others' blogs, because I get to read about their journey with Him (and just through life)- and it's not that they're writing about how perfectly they are living- in fact, they're often sharing some way they're humbly learning. It's that what they're writing about is real and shows growth and I'm inspired and encouraged by them. But still stuck.
I guess what I'm seeing is that maybe I'm not purposeless, but feeling desperate for growth and change, which then of course, I think is silly, because what am I desperate for? There aren't any really hard times in my life, I'm not going through anything that challenging. And I guess the point is that, in reality, whether we're experiencing something hard or not, we as human beings are still desperate for Relationship. So I'm not really sure if I have much to offer anyone else, but I have to get back to offer my whole self to the One who will make sense of everything. I suppose that means I need to find the motivation/gumption/persistence/discipline to really delve into my relationship with God, knowing that He'll meet me.... but that feels easier said than done.
Perhaps what I need to do is borrow an expression from Nike and "Just Do It."
What I love about new days, by the way, is that you can alway start over. Let go of yesterday's mistakes and failures, and start over. So, today, on this Friday, let's call it a new season and start over. Gotta keep trying!
