At this moment, I cannot share with you the particular situation that Husband and I are facing, but I can tell you our initial reactions.
Fear. Feelings of failure and frustration. Uncertainty.
"Let's see what Jesus has to say," I said. We turned to the devotional Jesus Calling, by Sarah Young. "Lord, let Your words be just the words we need to hear today," I prayed silently. For Husband to hear, he needed to hear the perfect words. And I began to read aloud, without scanning ahead.
I AM A MIGHTY GOD. Nothing is too difficult for Me. I have chosen to use weak ones like you to accomplish My purposes. Your weakness is designed to open you up to My Power. Therefore, do not fear your limitations or measure the day's demands against your strength. What I require of you is to stay connected to Me, living in trusting dependence on My limitless resources. When you face unexpected demands, there is no need to panic. Remember that I am with you. Talk with Me, and listen while I talk you through each challenging situation.
I am not a careless God. When I allow difficulties to come into your life, I equip you fully to handle them. Relax in My Presence, trusting in My Strength.
(Luke 1:37, 2 Corinthians 12:9)
About halfway through I began to cry. "Okay, God, You're listening to us. I see that." We read it aloud twice, and then each silently on our own, praying through it. Husband went back a few days in the book, to see what Jesus had to say the day this story began. I didn't read it with him, but apparently the words were again in answer. "Apparently we should be listening to Him more often," we commented.
We talked about what we were feeling, and then prayed together, knowing clearly that God was listening. We asked for wisdom, for clarity, for discernment. For peace, for our identities to be wrapped up in the Lord alone, for provision. We know He was listening, as He continues to listen.
And He answers.
Friends, I look forward to the opportunity I will have to share the rest of the story with you in the future, as we know we are not walking alone. Our path is lit (although we cannot see just yet), and it has already been traveled upon (although we do not know where it will go). Until then, pray with me, won't you?