A week ago Thursday, Husband came home with a story of a not-so-good situation at work. It shouldn't have been a big deal, but it got blown out of proportion, and more or less, his co-workers threw him under the proverbial bus. Friday he worked at a different site while his boss was going to supposedly "work it out." I say supposedly because, in my opinion, his boss had no intention of doing any such thing. Monday morning he told Husband that they needed to talk, but he was too busy until Tuesday, so he'd have to wait. In the meantime, Husband had the day off. Bravely, Husband told Boss, "I was stressed about this all weekend, so I just need to ask. Do I need to be looking for another job?" Boss' reply? "Possibly."
Hence, we prayed, and God listened and answered.
On Tuesday, Husband and Boss met for lunch. Boss didn't even mention the incident from Thursday that was the trigger of all of this, instead citing that "the guys had been complaining" about Husband. He could only reference one particular story, where both Husband and the co-worker were part of a misunderstanding. Co-worker, though, apparently made it sound like Husband was totally to blame and that Husband isn't doing a good job. Whatever, Co-worker. I'm on to you.
Finally, Husband asked Boss point blank if he was being let go. "Yes." They sorted out the details. Husband asked a few questions. Boss promised to be a good reference for him. Whatever, Boss. I'm on to you.
Husband's first words to me where that he felt like "this was a long time coming." His opinion was that Boss had been saving up little things people had been saying about Husband, and rather than communicating them all along so Husband could work on things, just stored them up until now. (Not that we know what those things are, since Boss had only the one example.)
It would be easy to be frustrated, because Husband has been there for four years, longer than any of these other guys. Husband has witnessed plenty of mistakes and issues from his co-workers, but he's not the type to go complaining to the boss. He's shown plenty of loyalty to this company, but is receiving none back.
Yet mostly, I feel peace about it. Yes, that's right. I feel good about my husband losing his job. (For now. Remind me of that in a month if he is still jobless.)
You see, there was no life for Husband at this company. It wasn't an uplifting, life-giving environment for him. I realize that no job can be that all the time, but this job was NEVER that. And he was weary of it, most of the time.
Now he's excited about some prospects. He's looking for a job, obviously, but not necessarily a job he wants to keep for ever. One prospect he's looking into is school. Electrical Engineering. You have to understand how huge it is that he would be excited about school, particularly something as hard as engineering. School has always been very hard for him, and he doesn't love it. But he met with the dean at a local university that caters to non-traditional students, and he's excited. I don't know if it's financially viable right now (we were in a tight situation before the job loss), but I'm excited that he's excited, and we're going to look into it. God knows what will work out.
I should be scared and stressed. Finances are tough. I was going to post the other week about how we'd just gone through things and it was tight. As in, don't know how we're going to pay for daycare in the fall tight. As in, what can we get rid of to nickle and dime our way into having enough to live on tight. As in, should we sell our townhouse and move into something cheaper, or with my parents, tight. So this should stress me out.
But instead, I am hopeful. Husband is excited. And I keep being listened to, and answered. Here are a few of the things He keeps saying. (All from Jesus Calling.)
I AM YOUR LORD! Seek Me as Friend and Lover of your soul, but remember that I am also King of kings - sovereign over all. You can make some plans as you gaze into the day that stretches out before you. But you need to hold those plans tentatively, anticipating that I may have other ideas.... Instead of scanning the horizon of your life, looking for the things that need to be done, concentrate on the task before you and the One who never leaves your side.... Trust me to show you what to do when you have finished what you are doing now. I will guide you step by step, as you bend your will to Mine.
(Proverbs 19:21, LUke 1:79)
AS YOU SIT QUIETLY in My Presence, remember that I am a God of abundance. I will never run out of resources; My capacity to bless you is unlimited
(Philippians 4:19, 2 Corinthians 5:7)
COME TO ME with your plans held in abeyance. Worship Me in spirit and in truth, allowing My Glory to permeate your entire being. Trust Me enough to let Me guide you through this day, accomplishing My purposes in My timing. Subordinate your myriad plans to My Master Plan. I am sovereign over every aspect of your life!
The challenge continually before you is to trust Me and search for My way through each day. Do not blindly follow your habitual route, or you will miss what I have prepared for you. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts higher than your thoughts.
(John 4:24, Isaiah 55:8-9)
His promises are secure. I'm learning, though, that to really fully grasp ahold of them, we need to earnestly seek and spend time with Him. As our pastor said last week, "once a week for an hour is not enough time to cultivate an intimate relationship with Him." It must be more.
We are confident that He is with us, and with that knowledge, we can do this. It will be a stretching season, a growing one, but I am sure, a blessed one, as He walks the path before us and with us.
While we are not sure where we are going, we know it will be Good. Pray with us for wisdom and discernment as we take each step, won't you?