I cannot have my heart healed if I am not even in conversation with the One.
I cannot have my relationship with Husband grow if I am not in Relationship with the One.
I cannot feel like I'm living with purpose if my purpose is not rooted in my Relationship.
I can sit in church on the very few Sundays I convince myself I have to go and cry in the back because I am alone and pray that God will heal me or release me, but nothing will happen if I am not even in conversation with Him.
I can think about how my relationship with my Husband could be improved and how he can and should grow, but nothing will matter if I do not have first and foremost my Relationship with the One as a priority.
I can feel sorry for myself about how I feel like I have no people and define my worth based on the number of people who call me to do something, initiate conversations with me, post on my Facebook wall, or comment on my blog. In that case, I'm going to feel rather worthless.
I can invest my time and energy and care and love into my students. A good thing, except that I tend to make a good thing the ultimate thing, and when I have time to sit and breathe, I realize that while that is rewarding and fulfilling, it is not Enough.
It is time to make a decision.
Or here, just for a laugh. (because I can't be serious all of the time)
Where will I go?
I know what I need to choose.
I want to choose it, too.
But I am weak, and easily sidetracked.
Still, the time has come.